The Visual

I'm unclear if this is going to be a blog type post or just some rambelings as of the current mood I'm in...
I guess I just feel like typing up some stuffs who really knows... who really cares...
ummm I guess its just some food for thought or just a mental view point on standing grounds nd what not... truthfully it beats me what I'm gonna say I just feel like screaming to the world or at least to a small group of listeners,

whateer way you look at it its just a mood and a setting.

Try and step back and look at a bigger picture life is a long har road filled with many faultsand crossroads thatone will have to encounter throughout ones journey to the better points in life.

we all have our ups and our downs but in the end they are just momentairy things nothing but yourself is ever truely permanant.
on that note I think its best that people stay true to themselves no matter how much someone else might dissagree with their views, we are individuals and as such we all have different personas and qualitys that contribute to a greater cause weather we know it or not.

I ave come also to the conclusion that people struggeling for acceptane are ridiculed every day for what they want to stand for and or what they believe is right.

maybe the world would be a much happier place for everyone with problems if they didnt have to suffer such stref.

I'll admit I didnt help any causes in the past by ostrasizing certain people for my views and how they didnt want to understand them, I have realized so much over the last 3 years that I feel I have been more accepting of alot of faults in people and the human race, its not my fault people have bad choices in life and i shouldnt be so quick to go on a tangent when 1 its not my place and 2 someone wants to ignore advice of anything helpful to better ones self.

on that note I have decided that in order to maintain balance and equality and being judged myself is just the way of life and its what humans are programmed to do.
its a default mechanisim with everyone and well I can accept said faults its just life.

I know I'm personally sorry and really truely in regret for alot of jacked up choices I have made in my tween years but its not so much a deturant of whats happening now more of each step in life is a learning experience and its what you takewith you from each that guides you to a better being... if your willing to change that is... some arnt so willing to have this realization and or like to ridicule and slander others names just to save face...

in the end its similar to the bullying that goes on with everyone fo any type of thing, be if your gay, straight, have green hair, like to cosplay, have ambitions, are antisocial ect.

alot of fiews in the world are jacked up and really quick to judge based on outer appearances of others... to simply judge without knowing is verry hypercrytical and bias and is infact wrong on alot of levels...
but everyone has done it be it on a large scale or a small scale its still happening.

I try my hardest to not be said hypocrite due to I have had similar experiences with what people go through in these circumstances and if I havnt exactly walked a mile in their shoes I'm at least willing to listen and learn for the btter of self preservation.

I ave pretty much lived my whole life with the internet as a resource to channel in and out feedback between all likes of people and self expression to a certain extent is shunned down on in this culture.

I'm not saying everyone is right and I'm not saying everyone is wrong i just think we all need to start opening up more and not keep looking at the faults of others to make yourself feel better.

theres no difference when someone takes a stand without knowing the person and only hearing bad imput thats just not the way life should work but its what happens.

people that know me know me well I tend not to falter from my path and wll even tho I try not to I know theres times where I do but again its only human but I shouldnt be shunned for it we all make mistakes some bigger than others.

I think what I want to get at is to be more accepting and understanding to everyones feelings, peoplethat dont want to understand or immediately think oh said so and so is emo or lable it are just programmed to automatically become a trolling person and not care what has been stated in the words or eyes of another person.

when in copeing its really hard to handle an onlaught of emotions specially when all you ever hear is negative slander, why not take a step back and actually see what was going on to lead to said predicament.
instead of continuing the hurt why not try and heal with what needs to be spoken about?

hell it doesnt even matter if one is blunt or brutally honest as long as it doesnt affect the outcome of some sort of helpful words of wisdom instead of feeding on the hate...

i have come to the conclusion that the ones doing all the bashing also live in some insecure world that haunts their mind and arnt able to just step back a second and just let someone vent and or express themselves and just adgitate an already angry/sad individual...
thats not how it should be at all if someone is asking for help its not that they are asking to be ridiculed or shunned for what they feel,
its an ongoing thing in life today and chances are it wont ever really change.

to just bring some sort of peace and harmony to a situation vs feeding it more negativity can not only save lifes of others but maybe even open their eyes,
we all have moments of weakness and its not the best choice when someone verbally attacks one thats in such a state be them 13 or 56...

it changes not the matter that maybe someone out there can actually express feelings on the subjects that arnt so brash and harmful to ones mental pattern instead slowly ease the mind into a better wave of thinking.

you can always lead a horse to water but it doesnt mean they will drink.
some cases they rather just dehydrate and die than continue on.

thats when the doors close and so does all the feeling of good in a person slowly starts to die, willpower is only so strong when given the enviornment theyhave lived in be it a good happy place or the rough streets of a mean cuty.

I guess I woke up this morning thinking about alot ofthings and how people react to certain things some not so good others maybe really helful.

but the end result is if you cant say something nice dont bother saying anything at all.

you can just keep it to yourself and think what you want but it doesnt mean you should use the other party as a whipping post for amusement or to see if another person will crack and do something regretful later...
in the end if thats how you want to live life maybe the person snapping shouldnt feel remorse at all seeing as whoever pushed them to that edge has the full blame for getting them to that point in life vs trying to have an outstretced hand.

no one ever said life is easy but it doesnt mean we have to fight against the grain the whole way and create un needed violence or warfare without better understandings.

just some views of some wandering things on my mind.
nothing more nothing less...
feelings pass and you tend to try and grasp onto better understandings if they are in fact reachable...

step back for a moment now and breathe go out and take pictures of something beautiful in life and you can look back at it later and it can bring a smile to your face hell create something big go outside your norm and sculpt something paint draw do whatever it is that gets you out of a funk vs trying to fule a flame try to extinguish it and grow into something better than what you are right now.
theres always time to learn new things we constantly learn on a daily basis so why not just step back and learn and breathe in some air and live a more happy life... its not really that hard but its also not super easy,
much like alot of wonderful things in life it all takes time and determination.

dont expect over night results start small and work your way up, who knows you might actually enjoy what you have done.

Love

Izzy